you and me
I
your purity unveiled my filth
no length of time can make me
forget that your love was
always greater than my hate
in a room littered with distrust
your face illuminated in its
youthful air turn into a feeling
that I recollect as love
a tender smile
rare just like an embryo
coming to life
your feet touched time
and your smile is all I got
in illusions
in reality
II
amid the interruptions of silence
by the whistling of the woods
I roam around with your shadow all night
adding your existence to my madness
from the time I have known women
I have not lived without loving
but to my necked heart
you are the one
a friend, a lover, muse of men
who taught me how to repent
not in blood or tears
but in action
from cigarette smoking hipsters
over the years
we have grown into a single face,
all of our love can be explained by this
I think about you
and smile,
but, the question remains
do we love each other
or the image of the other
III
you and I lived a life
in the numerous manipulations of love
in the pleasures of flesh
in the malady of romance
we live in the city lanes,
in the mofussil and in the countryside
beyond good and evil
together in a single verse
but is it ours
or
did we borrow one
IV
your feet touched time
beyond the lies and smile
there were wet dreams
between us
you shared my burdens
and inexpressibly began to heal
touch by touch
like “spring does to cherry trees”
your arguments were answers
in a decisive way
V
amongst all my hatred
dislike, complain and angst
I discover you
your pain
your tears
your inestimable sadness
distance made me realize
you in my numberless infinite
maybe in matters of life
opposites are most alike
yes, the devil of mars dripping in sin
has deceived venus for endless nights
you played the piano keys and
I groped for the symphony
plagued by lust and envy
my soul turned blue
and in a life without you
wind and women come and go
without knowing who was Michelangelo…
VI
in you
I have exhausted the last love of this world
after which there was none left
only empty vagrant expressions
you were exacting and me rather amenable
by all measures what a miracle we were
but nowhere in the universe I can swear
can you find a relation perfectly true and fair
finally we sat down to discuss reasons for
the death of love and in the crematorium
I finally opened myself to the joy of the
way the world actually exists
there is no meaning to life but in living
we moved in circles from one crematorium
to another, where we planted your soul yesterday
is covered with grass now
eyes fixed on the funeral pyre
I stood up to let go of all that is memory
to lean into the unknown and take the leap
and from that moment I became a man with
no past
my grace, my art ,my pleasures
are like yesterday
I daren’t anymore
turn that way
VII
in the end you and I shall forever
disappear into legend without a trace
to unite in the tender harmony of death
and in our union
death shall no longer be death
but a short slumber
before we wake up into eternity