The word 'rant' piqued my interest. Could I actually put all the static and chatter going on in my head day in and day out into a coherent thought?
What we say and what we actually do are sometimes in complete and utter contrast, the same is true for what we preach and what we inturn expect.
My little one soon turns 3 and also starts school, jury is out if I am elated to get some free time or if cutting the cord is going to throw me into depression. She's already this socially aware , happy and talkative child and inquisitive to a T. She learns faster than we can teach her and I love that her innocence has kept her honest. She is honest, which is what we have been trying to imbibe in her a anyways....... But that , with the terrible twos making an appearance means a very defiant and honest "No" overshadows every conversation, opinion and requirement. Can't really blame her it's the word most used around her and with it the annoyed exasperated tone wherein the 'N' is followed by a long ooooooo a few exclamations and a wtf before the question mark!!!!!
But a few times that she has used that same "noooooooo" in accordance to her annoyance at me, I got angry. Or when she says ' I don't like you mom, you go' I think how dare she speak like that , even though I know she is just mirroring my tone and saying that because she's being honest, I too would say it if my reasonable demand of ice cream for breakfast was refused.
It questioned my integrity, so how honest do I want her to be? Apparently not brutally honest!!!! Saying what I want to hear defeats the purpose but my reaction to her statements only cement the fact that I am at a loss on how to deal with her honesty.
I have to be ready to hear it and accept it because with time the child's banter will become a teenager's rant!!
I have become so self aware since I became a parent, all my shortcomings have come out and center guns blazing and for every lesson I teach my little one there's a bitter pill I need to swallow first!